My life being Bipolar

So today has been a lot better week than last week. I’m hoping it will get better, though I think I have come to grips with something. My husband and I have been trying for a baby for almost a year, and I think we are going to try really hard for the next two months to have a baby and then just give up and hope that brings us a child. I’m actually just brought a thing of pills at gnc that are suppose to help. So I guess we will have to see.

Well my Husband’s grandfather is actually doing a lot better. He wants to get around the house more in his wheelchair. Though its actually to small of a place to actually move around to much. But my Husband cleaned the kitchen really good and now he can get in there and eat his meals. Though I’m going to hate when he gets in his chair, though he is able to do that himself. But what happens if he falls, then I’m screwed because I will be with him by myself.

I also cleaned a little bit, though not as much as I wanted to because the hubby came upstairs saying he wanted to go to take a nap but never did. And I never got back up to finish it. Though when I get up I’m actually going to finish our room and work on our future computer/TV room.

Well I better go get some sleep now.

So today I’m on my own with my husband’s grandfather since the whole accident. That is until about 3pm, I’m kind of glad that the husband took the day shift until his grandfather gets better. Because I won’t have to worry about putting him to bed on my own. Which was something I was really worried about. All I have to do today is make sure he has his medicines and feed him lunch and most likely supper. I hope today goes really well.

Well I also have to get a bunch of laundry done, since my husband is now going back to work and will need work clothes. I want to get at least three loads of our laundry done before my husband gets home. Then another two loads after that. Hopefully grandfather doesn’t need to much today. I also hope he waits to go to the bathroom when my husband gets home, or I’m going to have to call some of the neighbors to come over and help him with that.

Also when my husband gets home, I’m going to tell him to get his grandfather in the wheelchair so we can give him soapy water to give himself a sponge bath from waist up. His home aid was supposed to do that yesterday but didn’t do it. Plus it was a woman and I don’t think his grandfather would have like that, though maybe he would have lol she was kind of cute and young. Well I better go, got to go down there to check on him in 15 minutes and get my first load in the washer for the day.

As you guessed it, I’m awake again at 3am. Even though I need to be up early today, I can’t sleep at all. But no big surpise there. Well today I will be putting in money to buy my Cantenna today. Hopefully it works and I have a lot better internet connection. Even 1MB would be nice of a connection. Though I’m hopeing for at least 5. I’m not going to be picky.

When I get this work I will be able to get a lot more people coming to my website and helping getting more people to my blog. Which is always great to do.

My husband is going to work just to pick up his paycheck, and then Tuesday will be his first day back in over a week. We really need the money this next week. But my husband is going to day shift until his grandfather gets better. Though he has to take a pay cut, because day shift pays a lot less. His grandfather is going to cover the 80 bucks he would have gotten if he was working night shift.

Well I guess I will go.

Well now we have closed the first full day of my husband’s grandfather being home. Things went a lot better. My husband still hasn’t been to work in over a week. The last time he went to work was Monday and he didn’t even get in a full schedule. Hopefully later today he goes in for about 5 hours just to get enough money to worth going to get it not this coming monday but the next.

I’m hoping my Cantenna will work so I can get a lot better internet and get get more people coming to my blogs. Maybe I can even get more people to sign up for a blog here this next month. I could really use the money, I’ve been wanting to do a lot of repairs on this old house. But you have to have money to do that, which is something I don’t have.

Well I better go and try and get some more sleep. Which is something I havn’t had much of recently and need to get some more before 7am.

This week has been very hard on my husband and I. Monday and Tuesday it has been raining, well his grandfather decided to meet the gas man at the bottom of a hill when he could have gone around. Well he slipt and fell and broke his ankle. Well he was in the hospital for 3 days because his heart rate was up way to high. It’s still up way to high.

And now he is home, and me and my husband are taking care of him. He is having a hard time breathing and i’m sure his heart rate is still way up there.  I’m scared that something will happend while he is here, with me alone. Because my husband has to work, and i’m with him alone right now.

Well I better get off here.

So here I am at almost 5am awake. Though I can’t really help that I got my new book today and have been reading it since 9pm last night. I always can’t seem to put down a good book.

And why else i should be getting sleep is because my IBS is acting up and it actually spasming out right now and is causing me a lot of pain at the moment. I guess my day of eating ice cream, french fries, and chocolate are not out of the question. Good thing I’m going on a diet on Monday. I don’t think I can handle much more of this happeneding. Use to I would be in the hospital at the moment, getting pain killers to help the pain go away. Well I really can’t go to the hospital with no car and I don’t want to call 911 either. So I’ve been trying to take care of it on my own.

I guess sleep will help it a lot better than I can at the moment. So I guess I should go do that now.

Hey all, How was everyone’s new years eve? Mine I celebrated with my husband and we got drunk and then I passed out at 12:05am. couldn’t last much longer than that. But that is the last time I’m going to be drinking for a good while. Come Jan. 5th I’m going to be starting my diet and I think Jan. 13th we will be moving into town.

So I will be able to keep up with my blog and getting more people here. Which is something I havn’t been able to do with being on dial up. And I do plan on getting a job, hopefully I can keep this job long enough to get the money I need for my medical transcription course, so I can work from home. Unless today.com keeps up with what they were saying about making this a full time job. 

Well I better get off here, I’ve got some things I have to do before giving this back to the hubby.

So I decided that its time for a change in my life. I need to lose weight, which I’m going to be starting one Jan. 5th. When I’ll have enough money to get just fruits and vegs, and lean meats. I plan on cutting my calorie intake and exercising a lot more.

I’m also planning on when we move to the big town about getting a job. I figure if I get a waitress job and save my money I’ll be getting my medical transcriptist course a lot sooner, which means I’ll be able to pay off my bills a lot sooner. And My husband and I can move into a bigger apartment, maybe a two or three bedroom, in a really nice neighborhood, or getting a house somewhere outside of the town.

I also plan on eating stuff that will help my bipolar, so I can keep on top of all this and making it a lot easier on me. A friend of my husband brought up a really good point, that bipolar is just an non balance of a certain chemicals in our brains, like diabetics who need insulin because the body does not produce enough of it. Maybe that’s the way it is for bipolar, that our bodies just don’t produce enough of a chemicals that we can get thru eating so foods. Well I’m going to try and test this theory to see if it works for me. 

Well I’m rambling again. Talk to you tomorrow.

Yeah it doesn’t feel like it should be the end of 2008 yet, but in 2 more days it will be. I did very well with xmas this year. We got a new tv, he got his meat and cheese thing and some old spice, and money. I got a scrapbook kit (now i need to get some pictures), sweater, money, and momma mia soundtrack. With part of my money I got a vaccum cleaner, two pc games, a 1GB of ram, a book shelf, and some 5 buck movies.

Though I can’t believe Christmas is over already, and the new year is almost here. But this coming year I do plan on getting healthier, so My husband and I have a better chance at getting a baby sometime next year.  Losing weight and being able to get a kid by next year are my main goals in 2009, well and getting a job so I can take my medical transcription course so we are better off money wise.

Well I better stop rambling and get on to doing some other stuff.

I really feel like crawling back into to bed and sleeping for a couple days and waking up and working on this for the mini vacation. But I really just need to get the clothes done, so we have what we want for xmas stuff.

I think I’ll do it tomorrow, but I do have to get the stuff out of the washer and put them into the dryer and fold his grandfather’s clothes, but i really don’t want to do it. LOL I wish I had gotten this all done a week ago then i wouldn’t have so much clothes to clean.

Maybe if I do go back to bed or just wake up some more I’ll get off my butt and get some more laundry done.

OMG!! I got Mamma Mia last night and it wouldn’t play at all, it sucked. So my husband took it back and exchanged it, so hopefully when he gets home i’ll be able to watch it, when i get dinner fixed which won’t take long tonight.