My life being Bipolar

So I made it thru another work week without calling off. I’m have very sore shoulders to prove it lol. My hubby is going out to buy me some icey hot to help with the pain. But I’m very proud of myself for going a whole week, though last week couldn’t have been helped I was very sick. Which I’m almost over, still can’t smell and I cough every once and awhile.

Thanks to all the people who have been commenting on this blog, I promise next week i’ll have a lot more information and stuff, I’m going to be researching topics for the week and maybe pre write them, so its not so hard on me thru the week when I’m working. Trying to research for my blogs and then trying to get the word out about my blogs takes up to my bedtime, since I have to get up so early on the weekdays.

Oh today I actually got to dress up, I went to work as death. Hehe which was fun only two other people dresses up, a lot more said they were but didn’t. Though during the last part of work it got so hot I’m gald I had a tank top and jeans on under my costume. Because I had to take it off.

We went and seen an apartment today, and I think we are going to get it. And we don’t have to get a roommate, which is nice by the way. And the people that own it are who I think they are we might not have to pay the down deposit. Which will be very good. But if it is who I think it is, then that will be good.

Well here I go again, on my other blog I wrote a bunch on a movie that I thought sucked, and wrote a spoiler for it, because it sucked so bad. But here I am again writeing a lot in this blog to, maybe I’m making up for only doing the min. word count during the week, which I might change. So everyone have a safe and fun Halloween I sure will by sleeping(I’m so tired)

So I often wonder how many people that are bipolar are very creative people. I know when I get into manic episode I come up with lots and lots of creative ways to make money from home, but then after the manic episode has ended I give up on the idea and never go thru with it.

I know I read a book about a year ago that said that bipolar are the most creative people because when they are on a manic episode they would write songs or poetry during this because of the fact that they get no sleep, but then it comes out really good.

But I know from personal experiance that I have been very creative even with my poetry. I guess I’ll have to do some more research on this topic to.

Well I had a better topic than what I’m getting to write about but things happened that made me a little ticked and not really wanting to write about it. So I think because I haven’t had much sleep last night that I am a little more easy to get ticked off. Which is kind of what happened when you miss out on sleep.

So my grandma keeps complaining that when we cook food that we use two carbs. When we are meat and potato type family, and then we usually have a veg along with it. And I told her that if she didn’t like it then she should fix her own super. I hate yelling at my grandma considing we are living here rent free and when we didn’t have that much money she fed us. So you see why I don’t want to yell at her much. But I sometimes can not help it at all.

Well i guess i’ll write what I wanted to tomorrow. See you then.

I came up with this title while working and the morning on morning I woke up for this job and nearly bit my husband’s head. lol And I mean it. So I’m doing research about it online. Though from what I hear and read, most bipolar people end up getting divorced. Because the fact that the “normal” spouse can’t handle the episodes anymore.

So I actually got me thinking about how many end divorced. And this is the website I found, though its selling something I think a book based off information about this. Though I wouldn’t pay for anything like this. So I went searching more, and couldn’t really find much. So if anyone could find information for me then please give me a comment about the website and I can write more of an article about it or you can write to me about your experiance and it would help we with my research about it. Thanks

I went food shopping today with my husband, and then he surprised me with going out to eat and then we took a Sunday drive since gas prices have gone down a lot around here. And then we end by a gas station, since we went everywhere and no where, and we stopped and got ice cream, it was some good ice cream.

Oh I don’t want to go to work tomorrow, but I need to keep this job, since my crazy grandma wants to move to Florida with a friend so that means we have to get out by Jan. So we got some numbers today for traliors, I’ve got to call all them at lunch and eat my lunch at the same time, hopefully we can get into a place before Thanksgiving so we are not so rushed.

This Monday I will also get in some more information about bipolar. I figure on the weekends I will just tell whats going on with my life at the moment. Well I’m going to get off here.

Well today for about 4 hours I felt very depressed, like I was worthless and that things were not going the way I planned for my life and everything thats gone wrong in my life and all that, that goes thru ones mind when they are depressed. Though it was a good thing that today’s depression wasn’t very bad, since I didn’t think about ending my life, and I call that a good episode. Its those episodes that you think about death that actually scare you and make you really worried.

But after that episode had past I tried to get some work done, though didn’t last long because the hubby was wanting the computer or wanting something from me to where I couldn’t even get cleaning done, I still have to put up a big load of laundry, that we did all our clothes at the laundry mat, didn’t fold them because I hate folding with a passion. So I just hang them up, but I still have to do that. But I’m only going to be up for a little longer then I’m going to go to bed. Since I don’t want to be going to bed to late tomorrow night since I have to go to work on Monday. And this week I plan on going each day so I get a bigger paycheck.

Yeah in Jan. we have to move, because my grandma who we are staying with now is wanting to move so we have to figure out what we are doing. I’m hoping we can get into a tralior and do a rent to own thing, then after that get a piece of land get that paid off, then save up for a house and build us a house and then sell the tralior. I think thats a great plan.

Well I better get off here and go to bed.

So here is more differences between the two disorder.  The degree of regression during angry episodes is typically more severe for children who are bipolar. It is rare to see an angry child who is ADHD display disorganized thinking, language, and body position, all of which may be seen in angry bipolar children during a tantrum. Children who are bipolar may lose memory of the tantrum.

The “tigger” for temper tantrums is also different in these disorders, children who are ADHD are triggered by sensory or affective overstimulation, where children with bipolar react to limit-setting( i.e., a parental “No”) and conflict with authority figures.

The moods of children who have ADHD or bipolar disorder may change quickly, but children with ADHD do not generally show depression as a predominant symptom. Irritability isprominent in children who are bipolar, especially in the morning on arousal. Childs with ADHD tens to arousse quickly and attain alertness within minutes, but childs with bipolar may show overly slow arousal upon awakening in the morning.

So I’m feeling a little better today, at least I don’t feel like a truck ran me over. lol. So i figure I would post another post on childhood bipolar. Which by the way as only been researched in the past 15 years so there isn’t that much information on it.

So it took a little digging to get some good facts. Because they thought a lot of bipolar kids were just kids with ADHD which they are a lot in common. But there is a lot of difference to it. And this is what I decided to write about this post.

Both disorders share many characteristics: impulsivity, inattention, hyperactivity, physical energy, behavioral and emotional lability (behavior and emotions change frequently), frequent coexistence of conduct disorder and oppositional-defiant disorder, and learning problems. Motor restlessness during sleep may be seen in both (children who are bipolar are physically restless at night when “high or manic”,though they may have little physical motion during sleep when “low or depressed”).

And the differences are;

The destructiveness that are in both disorders may seem the same but they are very different. A child with ADHD often breaks things carelessly while playing, where as the destructiveness with a bipolar child is not a result of carelessness, but usually out of anger. The duration and intensity of the angry outbursts and temper tantrums in the two disorder differs. A kid with ADHD usually calm down within 20 to 30 minutes wheras a kid with bipolar will continue to feel and act angry for over 30 minutes to 4 hour. The energy that a child with ADHD puts out during the anger outburst could be mimicked by an adult, If an adult tried to mimick a bipolar child would reach exhaustion in a few minutes.

I’m still very sick, and really should be in bed but I needed to write in my blogs. You think I’m a little addicted to blogging now? lol I thought I would let you all know whats going on with me.

Well I just got yelled at by my grandma for having the heater on, when its 35 degrees F outside, she told us (me and my hubby) to get clothes on and put on more blankets which we have been. Though i like it when I’m trying to sleep. I’ve always liked it that way. But the hubby doesn’t.  But right now I’m sitting here with a robe on, lol, and still cold. Oh well

Today around 11am we are meeting with someone about an apartment 2 bedrooms, w/d hookup and most ulities paid besides gas and electic. I’m hoping the gas is only for the stove, if its for the heating to, we are going to get a space heater to heat up stuff. Well I guess i better get back to bed, before I hear some of you say you get back in bed young lady lol. I’ll have some fact up when I am feeling a little better.

I really hate being sick. Because I don’t feel like being on the computer as much, but I have part of my work on the computer and then I didn’t go to work today because I was so sick. I had a fever of 102 and throwing up all night and day. I was sick all week last week and I got better and then I get even sicker today. I guess thats the price i have to pay to get a job.

Being around all these new people with different germs than I use to. Guess I’m going to have to take better care of myself. Though my and my hubby are still moving in a month, got to get stuff ready to be packed and everything cleaned. Plus save every bit of our money for the Uhaul and then the monthly payment for our sounds like going to be a studio apartment though I don’t know how well that will work with me hating the tv on awhile I sleep and him getting up way to early.

Well i better go back to bed and get some sleep, I’ll try and research some more information on childhood bipolar.