My life being Bipolar

Well today for about 4 hours I felt very depressed, like I was worthless and that things were not going the way I planned for my life and everything thats gone wrong in my life and all that, that goes thru ones mind when they are depressed. Though it was a good thing that today’s depression wasn’t very bad, since I didn’t think about ending my life, and I call that a good episode. Its those episodes that you think about death that actually scare you and make you really worried.

But after that episode had past I tried to get some work done, though didn’t last long because the hubby was wanting the computer or wanting something from me to where I couldn’t even get cleaning done, I still have to put up a big load of laundry, that we did all our clothes at the laundry mat, didn’t fold them because I hate folding with a passion. So I just hang them up, but I still have to do that. But I’m only going to be up for a little longer then I’m going to go to bed. Since I don’t want to be going to bed to late tomorrow night since I have to go to work on Monday. And this week I plan on going each day so I get a bigger paycheck.

Yeah in Jan. we have to move, because my grandma who we are staying with now is wanting to move so we have to figure out what we are doing. I’m hoping we can get into a tralior and do a rent to own thing, then after that get a piece of land get that paid off, then save up for a house and build us a house and then sell the tralior. I think thats a great plan.

Well I better get off here and go to bed.

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