Dec 16 2008
Dec. 16th, 2008
I’ll put the last bipolar type on here tomorrow, but I thought since I haven’t journalized in awhile thought that I might do it. I’ve been really tried lately and been getting sick to my stomach at night. So I figured its time to detoxify myself tomorrow and the day after that. I just need to clean out my system so it can start working again.
I just hope I can actually make it through the next 48 hours with being able to do this. I don’t have very good will power, but I’m hopping my lower back will help me keep in line with the detoxifying. I know this has nothing really to do with bipolar, but in away it does because of not being able to finish anything because of the bipolar. I’m going to try and not let that effect me this time.
Well i’m going back to bed night.
stick with it you’ll find your balance.
On a full-moon day in May, he sat under the Bodhi tree in deep meditation and said. “I will not leave this spot until I find an end to suffering.” During the night, he was visited by Mara, the evil one, who tried to tempt him away from his virtuous path. First he sent his beautiful daughters to lure Gautama into pleasure. Next he sent bolts of lightning, wind and heavy rain. Last he sent his demonic armies with weapons and flaming rocks. One by one, Gautama met the armies and defeated them with his virtue.
As the struggle ended, he realized the cause of suffering and how to remove it. He had gained the most supreme wisdom and understood things as they truly are. He became the Buddha, ‘The Awakened One’. From then on, he was called Shakyamuni Buddha.